Hi, I’m back. Please excuse me if my writing style does not seem coherent or flow very well… I’ve lost my edge recently due to stress and fatigue.
I feel like… all this (work, effort, endurance) has been culminating up to this very point. The point of getting a job that launches my career. If I fall short of attaining that… If I end up in a position that is outside one of my target companies or not in product development…. then I have basically given up and, really honestly, if I were to do anything outside product development or outside of my target company, there is very little chance any added value would come from the chosen job.
I’ve done enough things right now that all I really can add to my portfolio is experience in they very company or exact role (product development) that I intend to go after. So it would be a waste of time to be elsewhere…. hence I will haven given up on my dream by allowing myself to do so.